Its not so much the feeling that heats in me
when you’re inside of me
the smiles that we create
on each other
that everyone can see
Starting from the center of our beings
exploiding through our veins
& climaxing on our faces
Emotionally I’m on mountain peaks,
physically reaching sexual peaks
& his words guide me many places
on forward when haters tried,
past where my confidence died,
beyond where my insecurities lied
& for that he’s beautiful
I guide him inside my sticky & rainy world
where he stands
So firm & implanted in me
& pushes for what I want,
We become 1 and escape to paradise
momentarily as our bodies move in sync
as if instinct to please
as natural as the warming of the sun on a cool day
or on a warm day the cool breeze
as my knees began to shake
& my voice starts to quiver
I feel you start to twitch & shiver
We know we’ve reached another peak
together we cum & leave paradise
hoping to return soon but knowing
that emotionally we’re still attached
I water you & tend to you
& watch this bloom into a beautiful flower latched
right onto my heart.
I love you.
Maybe if my head was a gavel
& I banged it on a sound block
my thoughts would be hushed
The jury in my ear
giving me their verdicts
as if they’ll sin no more
Knowing that as soon as I listen
they’ll be out that door
to swim in alcohol or fly in drugs
I don’t judge them
knowing they’re all just like me
looking for acceptance
& a place, I admit that I am guilty.
I plead the filth of giving my all
hoping that you would accept me
& make me your queen.
Hoping that my place in this world
was somewhere upon your throne.
I bowed to you….
as a servant not realizing
that I myself, am already a royalty.
Beautiful and reining truthfulness & hope
to where ever my kingdom stretches.
Now, you bow!
For everything isn’t as it seems.
Thought you were a king
but you are merely a merchant
taking hearts in exchange for self-filfillment.